Post by Jaimie Wilcox on Mar 5, 2018 16:52:25 GMT -5
December 27th 2028
I don't even know why I am writing this, probably cause I have a few too many drinks in my system. I am about half way... okay maybe more then half way.. trough this bottle of wine. Freddy Hjort left not that long ago, maybe about an hour. I can't believe what an idiot I am. Like I really thought I could change anything. Freddy is loyal to Sarah. I'm just... well I'm just Jaimie. This whole thing was really confusing because, I thought I had a chance, I really did. Especially when we were kissing, he seemed so in to it. But it turned out he thought that he was just dreaming the whole time. Either that or it was just a lie to spare my feelings when he realized it was a mistake, that I was a mistake. I wonder if he is going to tell Sarah. Will she ever forgive me? Merlin I hope she doesn't find out. She doesn't need to be hurt because of decisions I made. How am I ever going to look her in the eyes again? How is Freddy going to? She's my friend and I can't believe I did that to her, I can't believe I did that to him... I just, I had to have him know how I feel.
I feel like the most selfish person on the planet. I'm going to go to bed before I screw anything else up today.
Love,
Jaimie
I don't even know why I am writing this, probably cause I have a few too many drinks in my system. I am about half way... okay maybe more then half way.. trough this bottle of wine. Freddy Hjort left not that long ago, maybe about an hour. I can't believe what an idiot I am. Like I really thought I could change anything. Freddy is loyal to Sarah. I'm just... well I'm just Jaimie. This whole thing was really confusing because, I thought I had a chance, I really did. Especially when we were kissing, he seemed so in to it. But it turned out he thought that he was just dreaming the whole time. Either that or it was just a lie to spare my feelings when he realized it was a mistake, that I was a mistake. I wonder if he is going to tell Sarah. Will she ever forgive me? Merlin I hope she doesn't find out. She doesn't need to be hurt because of decisions I made. How am I ever going to look her in the eyes again? How is Freddy going to? She's my friend and I can't believe I did that to her, I can't believe I did that to him... I just, I had to have him know how I feel.
I feel like the most selfish person on the planet. I'm going to go to bed before I screw anything else up today.
Love,
Jaimie
